Depression

I am suffering from depression.  I know it.  My doctor, however, does not think so. She seems to think I have SAD or seasonal affective disorder.  She won't give me my antidepressant medication anymore.  I have to make an appointment with a shrink.  The problem is that the depression combined with ADD means I have the intention but don't seem to be able to put it in practice.  When I have days off I just sleep or lay around.  I don't do anything anymore.  I don't do laundry until I have no clean underwear left.  I don't cook unless I have no choice.  I don't clean.  I don't spend time with old friends.  I don't do anything.  I don't have desire to do anything.

I want to.
I want to exercise.
I want to visit friends.
I want to clean my house.
I want to do a lot of things.

I just can't do anything.  The desire is not counter balanced by the energy or the will power.  I don't know how to deal with it.  Another issue is the cost.  If I go to a shrink I have a co-pay and a deductible.  Then the meds have a co-pay.  I am already drowning in debt.  It may not look like a lot of debt to most people.  But if I cannot pay my rent or fall behind on utilities that is debt.  I only have one credit card but it is maxed out at $500.  I do have phone and cable bills though.  I thought about discontinuing my cable but it is my only entertainment.  Maybe if I did I would do something else?  Maybe I would just sleep.  Maybe I would read more?  I don't know. I just don't know.